Recovery from Loss: Being Reminded to Trust the Universe

It has been a long time since I wrote in this blog. Since my last post much has happened bot good and bad.


I got married in May 2014 and have a very happy life with my husband 3 cats and mini schnauzer. I am grateful for my husband's love and support. I am not sure h
ow I would have gotten through the last 2 years without him.

We lost his father, my father, 2 of my best friends 1 of Jeff's good friends all of whom were in our wedding party and then some other friends and family as well. In total we lost 10 different people in the past 2 years and as hard as that has been we know we were brought together to help each other through the tough times.

Then last summer I started to have health issues that have taken a year to get sorted. There were times I wanted to give up and just stop but then I would get heart felt  messages from some wonderful clients as to how much the work I do has helped them in in their lives. These messages would arrive just when I needed them most and I know that the senders really had no idea how stressed I was. Each time this happened my energy was renewed and I was able to keep going.

Just as I was sorting out my health I was hit hard with all the losses we had gone through. I had not been able to work as much as I needed and now the bills were more than we could handle. Again I wanted to quit but then we were guided to a way of managing our finances. It has not been easy but we are learning to live within our means and without credit cards. It can be frustrating at times but in the long run we will be debt free and able to make a  fresh start without going through bankruptcy. Money is tight but I am reminded to trust the universe. I am finding ways to cut down our expenses and able to pay for the things we need with the money we make. When we need money work has come through and we are really blessed to see this happen each time we are in real need.

As much as the last two years have pushed my husband and myself to our limits we have become more in tune with the universe and thankful for the blessings that have come our way and continue to come to us as needed.  It is not always obvious but when we look back we do see the magic of how the universe works.

Life Catalysts: Never What You Expect Them to Be…

Many times in my life I have been told that through my spiritual work that I am meant to be a catalyst in the lives of others. While I accept this as part of the purpose behind being a Spiritualist Medium there are times when it is a very stressful to be handed this job. It has in the past hurt me deeply to see friendships end and to realize that I am really alone in the way I see my work but I have come to fully trust Spirit does things for reasons and that in the end it works out as it should.

While I fully expect Spirit to hand me the role of catalyst in the lives of the people around me, I do not pretend to know how this will play out. I don’t think I am supposed to have that insight and I am suspicious when people around me start trying to tell me just HOW I am meant to be the catalyst in another’s life because this usually proves to be little more than some folks using me, my energy, my talents and the things I am connected to as a way to fulfill their personal agendas. Most of the time they are unconscious that this is what they are doing and it comes to a shock to them when situations do not work out as they plan them to.

I am not shocked that their plans are kyboshed however, because it seems to me that SPIRIT decides in what way someone is to be a catalyst and Spirit does not usually explain exactly how the change is going to come. Usually even I do not know who I am a catalyst for until the event has come about and the changes are happening. All I know is that Spirit presents situations where I (as the catalyst) am forced to act and react in a way that is best for me and that is exactly what I have learned to do.

Self-preservation being an instinctual tool, I can sense when I must speak my truth in a blunt way and for some this is the catalyst in their lives that they least expect. Sadly but not surprisingly, I find that these folks with agendas are so focused on changing others to fit their notions of how life should unfold that they do not realize that Spirit is actually using me to be a catalyst in their lives rather than the lives of the people they hope and expect to change.

I used to think I was just imagining it but the more I go through experiences with people the more I am convinced that I am a life catalyst but that as a catalyst I am never quite what the people who’s lives I change expect me to be. While this used to bother me I now think it is how Spirit uses each of us to help those around us grow.

With that in mind I know I am blunt and say the things that some folks are not ready to hear but I am definite in saying what I am compelled say and adamant in knowing that I am guided by Spirit regardless. For this reason I stand by what I say and will face whatever consequences might come out of being truthful with those who ask for my advice and psychic impressions.

For those who might not really be able to handle the blunt truth then do not challenge me to be a life catalyst for others unless you are willing to risk change as well because you will find I am never what you expect and that the changes you plan for others might be brought to your life instead because that is how Spirit works.